I was not thrilled with the idea of another surgery … in fact, I always have this irrational anxiety that I will remain awake for the entire procedure, knowing and/or feeling what is being done to me … or that the procedure will at least begin before the anesthesia has actually set in. This anxiety was especially heightened today, since I was completely lucid going into the operating room … no pre-op specific area like my last two surgeries (2 weeks ago for this, and 2 years ago for my oopsie on roller skates).
Fortunately, on my way out of St. E’s (and on the way to meet my David for our delicious and long-anticipated lunch), I heard My Hope is in You by Aaron Schust. “The peace that passes understanding is my song” or in my case “prayer” was just what I needed as a reminder to turn over that fear/anxiety to God as I waited to drift into the “twilight state” for the procedure to begin, and all is well. There is some pain at the port site, but nothing unbearable, and nothing a little pain medication (considerably less than the last 2 surgeries) cannot handle.
And now, I will leave you – just for fun – with a short picture essay of David’s and my journey together in this life. We have been together 10+ years. He is the love of my life, and there is no one I would rather have by my side.1986 – David, age 15, playing at Animal House (NoCo) with Jaded Heart 1988 – David, age 17, playing at Mississippi Nights on Laclede’s Landing with Dirty Trixx 1988, Sarah (10) Bobby (9) and Radie (5) before school (I’m the cutie on the right 1994 – David, age 23, with daughter, Kirsten 1995 – Sarah, age 17, Nimue in Camelot 2003 Fall/Winter – David and Sarah are engaged. Our [first?] pic together.